slowing things down

i'm coming down with a flu, i hate being sick but i think this is just a reminder that i need to slow things down. things at work had been quite erratic lately. don't get me wrong, i like where i work and i'm proud to be part of a globally known company. it's just that sometimes the management sucks! they don't care much about their people, not all, of course, but the higher-up's like a slave driver.




hay.... i wanna have a week of complete rest.

vicious cycle

heard from him and it gave me that longing again. what's in this for me? NOTHING! why can't i let it go then? we can never be just friends... that's already clear. if we don't stop it'll lead to something again and it'll just be a vicious cycle. we've got nothing in common and i don't think it'll work even if we give it another try. and i don't wanna be unfair to him, i don't want him to trade somebody that could be on it for the long haul already for somebody who's not even sure of what she really wants. he can't trade in something that's so real for something that is flimsy.

we've talked about it already and he has a point. i can't have him make that choice i myself am not sure of what i really want. am i willing to make the necessary sacrifices? will it work this time? do i really love him?

this is an addiction that needs to be curb.

clean-up

GOD's spring-cleaning my life. this is gonna be a long process.

Angels & Demons

i slept during the first part of the movie but all in all it's a good one but the character of Tom Hanks was just too good to be true. anyways, what struck me was the line of the cardinal

"religions are flawed because people are flawed.."

true indeed. so, we shouldn't base our faith on religion nor on people.

affected

there's this heaviness in my heart because i know his days in the office are already numbered, in fact yesterday could be his last day already. well, i could still talk to him and all but i would really miss seeing him almost everyday... it's not gonna be the same at work without him.

but i'll get used to it somehow, it's not going anywhere anyways and besides i'm not really sure whether i want it to go somewhere or not. he's a big ass! but how come i still believe that he's got something good inside of him? i don't know! he's making me act weird. i never thought he would have this too big an effect on me.

my heart is sad.

help!

hope i could talk to u and get to know u better. but do i really want to be that emotionally intimate with u? you'll be a major heartache if i keep at this... oh GOD, i wanna get over this craziness.