next?

yesterday another one of my friends walked down the aisle. it was surreal! us girls all got misty-eyed because of joy. the couple's testimony and love story were indeed proof that this is God's doing. since they're both in the music ministry their wedding's like a musical. they were singing a duet while the bride walks down the aisle. romantic indeed! and i liked the couple's first dance also, it's not the traditional type. had fun!

but one of the things that struck me about the ceremony was when the pastor said that marriage is not just a contract, it's a covenant. what's the difference? contract could be voided, could be discontinued whereas a covenant's forever. u stay with each other no matter what. yeah, marriage is a point of no return. that's why marriage is not for everybody.

made me wonder if i should keep on with Schatz, should i? of all the guys that came into my life he's the one who has led me to a closer walk with GOD despite the arguments and all. marrying him would be like a celebration of our FATHER's goodness and how HE has answered a long time prayer, how HE has given a heart desire of many years.

i wonder how he's doing. his old bestfriend's back from england already and it's enough to make the old fear resurface. but why would i be scared? my friend's story is a good example that if you're meant to be together, God will do something about it. but of course GOD deals with each one of us differently.

so, who's gonna be next now?

DEATH!

my sis-in-law's dad passed away just yesterday, it was quite a shock to all of us because it's so sudden. i really felt bad and saddened because her dad and mom were about to have their dreams come true. they bought a new house in the country side and were really excited about moving there come summer. the dad's quite excited that he has moved in there already as early as latter part of last year and then THIS!

but who are we to question this? death has its purpose and it's a reality check for us who's been left behind. till when are we gonna live? when will be our last day on earth? how are we gonna die? will it be sudden? have a lived good enough for others to miss me? have i done enough for my Lord? if not i then who's gonna be next to go to the grave? if the one who's going next is close to me, a relative or a friend... have i shown that person enough care? have i shown that person that he's/she's loved? these are just some of the questions that i've asked myself when i've learned of his death.

really, we could leave this life anytime... i could leave even now. am i ready for it though? are u?

spiritually speaking, yes i am ready. it's not because i'm good nor i've sinned less than the others. i'm still a sinner but one that's been saved by my Savior. i'm confident enough, due to HIS mercy and grace, that i'm gonna be with HIM when i die and quite frankly, i'm looking forward to that already. but not yet....

though my soul's already in HIS care i have yet to correct so many things with the way i live life. i ought to show more love to those around me. i have to lead others to CHRIST. i don't wanna be asking myself if someone close to me dies whether that person's soul is secure or not. i don't wanna have regrets just because it's already too late for me to show that person that she's/he's loved. tears, flowers, etc won't make that person feel loved anymore. so i better take action now.

last sunday a colleague went with me to church but even before that we've already discussed people's beliefs over a cup of coffee. and u know what's wrong with us people? we've forgotten how to think! we've become soooo lazy that we don't want to search for what's true anymore. we've forgotten how to ask significant questions already. we let people dictate to us what we should believe in. i told him that i don't want him to accept my beliefs just because i told him to or it looks good and sounds good. i want him to think. to search for the truth on his own. i hope he does that.

i remember reading somewhere that 'your belief or faith will only be real once u've started questioning it".

WEIGH!

busy beeee

busy life! how can a man fit in? juggling my time with work, raket, friends, church and what-nots! i need a holiday away from all the hustle and bustle of every day life. and the bridal shower party we just had was a welcome break indeed though i wish i never had to leave early. well, there will be more of that in our circle. hmmm.... how many more left now? supposed to be 5 or 6 (if i'm not mistaken) but then whenever someone has to leave then someone else would come along. but it's really good to see each one of us leaving and going to another chapter in life... knowing that it's the right kind of relationship, with the right guy and that it is GOD's doing. we also got kinda misty eyed during the bridal shower because just a few years back it was just a dream and now it's just a few days away to reality. GOD is indeed good and HE's true to HIS promises.

well, maybe some of us will end up single in this life time but i know and i believe that when that time comes GOD will give us the peace that passes all understanding and that we will accept it with joy in our hearts. HE knows better, remember. my battle cry has always been, "it's better to be single and alone than be married to the wrong one." now, i've got to instill that in my mind.

i've been hearing news about the office guy telling me not to go ahead with it and that he's just a waste of time and all. i know i should listen. i have to listen. GOD has preserved me for so long, molding me and all and i shouldn't waste all that just because his eyes are to-die-for and his good looks could send chills all over my body. can u get any shallower than that? hahaha

i've been bought with a price, i should be priceless and wise in my decision makings. help me, GOD!

how's life?

i've got no reason to complain, really. work's ok, got my oh so lovely friends, i have a GOD that's so gracious and faithful and though there's still no love life in the horizon somehow the ofc guy and i are ok again which brings excitement to my every day in the office. his eyes make me want to melt on my seat. gorgeous indeed!

but i'm not in love, i don't want to fall again. i'm more careful now! if i could just take the image of those eyes off of my mind, i'd sleep better but for now they haunt me!

miracles do happen

just when everybody thought that it could never happen, it did. made it! clean slate again... yahoo!

thanks, DAD!