love sundays

it's been a great and productive day. had 4hrs of rest day OT last night but went home before 5am. went to church this morning, small group with the girls afterwards and then PT session right after. excited about it all.

last saturday we had a christian film showing right after work. planned it with joey but i really felt bad that i wasn't able to help him much. will make it up to him next saturday as we start the ETD session. praying for a receptive heart for the attendees. and in preparation for this our small group's simulating the ETD sessions, it's a good learning experience because we get to at least predict the what-would-be-questions. of course u can never be prepared enough, we should just do our best and leave the rest to GOD.

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crazy to want u like this. my heart's grieving. i seldom feel like this but that's how i exactly feel right now. i wanna be seen, heard, treasured. is that too much to ask for?

SL

this has been the 3rd or 4th month that i've been feeling like this and it's getting scary already. last night i wasn't able to go to work because of it. yeah, i know i need to manage my time properly and do the sessions often. doing it once a week just won't do, it has to be more regular than that. but how do i do that? life's already so full and i'm even planning to join 2 more programs. the hours just weren't enough to do all the things that i wanna do. i wanna volunteer in our street kids ministry in church again and also join this program that i've been putting off for months already. so, which one should i do first?

meeting up with a dear friend for dinner tonight. when i got invited i knew it's gonna be a talk about something important, could it be it? looking forward to having a one on one talk, it's been long overdue. :-)

hypocrisy?

i don't know what to call it but sometimes it feels like i'm leading a double life. i sometimes say things that's so not me. well, it's not that i'm doing something that's really bad, i could say it yes but that's all there is to it...mere words! but of course that's not an excuse coz nothing unclean should come out of my mouth. GOD's been working on me when it comes to this and i'm glad to say that i've stayed on course for more than a month already. i don't wanna be tempted again and it's good that i don't see him anymore. keep it at that, Lord. pls?