written JAN 5, 2011

I haven’t updated for so long because I don’t have internet at home yet. Yes, I’ve already moved out of our (their) house and is now living on my own and I’m actually liking it. Though I’m loving it I often times worry about the bills and all but I know that my God will take good care of me... so, I should quit worrying. He has brought me this far, He’ll surely see me through.
I’ve already spent Christmas here at my new place together with my bro and his family plus our adopted sister who lives with me. New year’s pretty quiet with just me and my sister at home. It was ok and I didn’t even feel lonely, I guess I’ve outgrown that already… the holiday blues, I mean. It was nice to be quiet for a change.
Yesterday I had my first non-family visitor. A friend picked me up from work, bought dinner and headed home. And as we talk God actually touched my heart and made me feel something that I never really felt for this friend though we’ve known each other since college. God gave me love and compassion and I actually felt bad about her health condition. And I actually cared!
I’ve been inviting this friend to church for years already. She said yes once and never came back after that. She’s actually turned off with my way of introducing Christ to her and yesterday I actually realized how wrong my way was. You see, she’s the type of person who’s straightforward. She has a pretty strong personality, so I thought. But how wrong I was! She’s actually the fragile type. She longs to be loved. She wanna be taken cared of just like any other girl. So my way of introducing Christ to her was –oh-so-terribly wrong. I was so blunt in telling her that what she’s doing is sin. I’ve failed to get into her shoes and actually feel what she’s feeling. But with the realization last night I hope, with God’s help, that all that would change. I wanna show her how God loves her just the way she is. That she doesn’t have to prove anything to God because He knows who she really is. He knows how she exactly feels and that she doesn’t have to search far for her to find the love that she so craves for.
Help me, Lord, to show her the way to You.