D.A.

not sure if i've written about my neighbor that i took notice of months ago. he already left but his bro still lives a door away from me. i've been wanting to give him a book because i really feel sorry for him. he lives alone, doesn't have anything in his apartment but a small mattress to sleep on, water container and a tv which i think his brother bought for him just recently and he only eats bread. nobody talks to him and he seldom leaves his unit. i sometimes see him looking confused, walking in the rain and all but i don't think he's a full blown schizo though because he could still function on his own. but i really wonder what his story is? he used to live in the US, that much i know. maybe he's got war shocked or something but whatever his story his i want him to hear about Christ.

so last night i asked one of the caretakers to give him the book and gospel tract. i told the caretaker not to tell who's it from and DA (his initials) sounded kinda paranoid but then thought that maybe it's from his brother. i wrote him a note though and once he reads it he'll know that it's not from his bro. i hope it's ok with him and i pray that he reads the book and gets something from it.

i want him to know the Lord.

argggggh!

the world's getting smaller again... you should stay in your building and not come back to mine. a glimpse of you's good from time to time but to actually be in the same building as you is not fun at all. i don't like the feeling, it's suffocating.

for girls

lesson for the girls;

guys will be naturally flirty once they've found out that you kinda like them. and that doesn't necessarily mean that they like u back or that the feeling is mutual, it's just in their nature... it's how they're wired i guess. so, they really can't help it.

conditions

the other day i've found out that my adopted sister was using my laptop, not to mention my other stuff that i've told her time and time again not to use. and she even lied to me when i confronted her about it. i got so pissed that i asked her to leave. she did for a couple of days but decided to take her back with conditions and a final ultimatum.

which got me into thinking... what if GOD's like me? what if HE gives conditions each and every time i fail HIM, every time i sin? i wonder what have become of me if my GOD's like me. i've still so much to learn about forgiveness. i tend to keep tabs and i easily give up on people. i seldom give second chances.

it could be the exact reason why seldom of my relationships in the past lasted. speaking of romantic relationships, i was reading a novel the other day and the plot was about this guy who tends to pull back when he feels himself getting overly into someone already. he would disappear for days and would say things that would really hurt his partner's feelings but the girl stayed longer than i know i would. and god i don't wanna go through those heart wrenching scenes again. i'm too old for that but one thing i've learned, it's easier for me to let go now except for one person.... my german guy.