it's my day!

it's my birthday today and it's been a good one, i must say. yesterday i went to tagaytay with a dear friend and bought lots of stuff. today, my cousin's family and my bro's family together with our moms had dinner here at my place.

though i already know what the answer will be i still tried to invite schatz. i should really move on. that one's already a no go. it'll be hard because 7 yrs is 7 yrs. GOD's with me though and i know He'll see me through.

so, what's my birthday resolution? I WANNA BE MYSELF. AND I WANNA SAY, "THE HELL I CARE WITH THEM!" not in a bad way, of course. but i think i've cared too much about what other people would think of me that i kinda became enslaved to them already without them knowing it. i don't wanna fake self confidence anymore. i really wanna have it this time.

as i was telling you about the temple grandin story on my other post, i wanna be like her. i wanna be proud of my limitations. i want people to see God's strength through my weakness. i really shouldn't be wasting that opportunity.

help me, FATHER to put this into practice gradually. and lastly, thanks a lot for everything!

cancelled

birthday plans cancelled because i got sick. anyways, it's all good. i got the rest i needed. and been watching tv for the past few days. one story that really enthralled me was temple grandin's story. she's autistic but it didn't prevent her from being successful. one of the lines that got into me was, "Different, not less."

Day 1

i've been thinking of what to do for my birthday and then this idea entered my mind... i would date the people who've made a great impact on my life from sept 1 till the day of my birthday. and day 1 of course would be with the LOVER OF MY SOUL... My Lord and Savior.

He has given me a rich life. i may not be rich when it comes to monetary value but HE has filled my life with experiences and lessons that the others could only observe and not experience fully. what i should pray for then is how i could use it for HIS glory, to put it in good use.

Teach me, LORD. reach into my very soul and extract from it what You could use. I am here, send me.