downcast

Psalm 40

I waited patiently for the LORD; and He inclined unto me and heard my cry.

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i feel down, i don't know why. i think looking at betsy's shots triggered it. i wanna see the colors of autumn, DAD. will i ever see it in this lifetime? i wanna see it, smell it, feel it and touch it. sometimes it feels like nothing's ever gonna change in my life. i feel bored. busy but bored.

you're my only hope, DAD. don't leave me. i feel so alone.

names

stop putting labels on your emotions. feel what you must but don't give it a name because if u do u'r just cherishing something that doesn't need to be cherished... such us unrequited love. i've thought of this the other day and put it into practice and i think this is effective.

it's quite logical, whenever u give something a name it means it's important and that you're planning to keep it forever. and if u want to keep something forever you would nourish and cherish it. what if it doesn't wanna stay? so just to save urself from too much pain, just treat it as any other emotions. just let it come and go and don't call it anything!