schatz

i am again being reminded of schatz for days now. it's been  almost 6 mos since we've last communicated. much as i don't want to admit it, he's still the one i wanna marry given the choice. he was actually right in saying that i don't know him that well yet, but what i know of him was already enough for me to want to be with him in this lifetime. i love him still.

but i have to move on... i already wasted more than 6 years waiting for him and i don't want another 6 years of futile waiting.

ahhh

sometimes if u'r single u tend to forget that u have a heart

because u don't feel it beating...

good thing there's Sunshine

to look beyond...

.... my incapabilities, to see what i am actually good at
....today towards a better tomorrow
...a pretty face, to see what's really in the person's soul
....what's obvious, to see the essence of it all.


i really have to rethink this life over

wishing

that God would be after my happiness instead of my character.... even for just a while. :-( 

what's this?

i won our never ending battles and nothing bad happened  but i so wanna cry. i don't like this feeling at all. my whole body feels like it's on fire. slept for just 2 hrs since yesterday, haven't had any decent food either but it feels like i could last another day without eating nor drinking. and it feels like i've got springs on my feet. what's this?