dream and heartaches

had a dream yesterday wherein i had to undergo 3 major heart surgeries, one after the other and the ones performing the surgery were my aunts. what's weird was the one who's with me and consoling me was someone from work whom i wasn't even interested in and that person admitted to not liking me at all. weird!

anyhow, my interpretation of that dream;

i have had 3 major heartaches in my entire life  wherein the persons involved hurt me so badly. had a relationship with the 2 of them but love left their hearts way before it left mine and the last one, whom i think was my ultimate love (high school) didn't even feel 'that way' towards me.  i really need to have a heart overhaul. i need to offer this area of my life back to God.

updates

sept 21

i haven't been blogging much since i got here and i kinda miss it. i used to have my way with words (i think) but i've lost it. i still read a lot though because iif i don't my mind's gonna rot.

i'm starting to like living in a condo though at times  i feel so out of touch with the world but i love not having to worry about floods, wall and roof leaks, etc.  I kinda love the privacy it gives, the peace and quietness of it but it gets lonely at times. 

i have yet to invite sunshine over. it'd be easier since it's just a stone throw away from where we work. hmmmm... temptation!

been singing the same song for almost 5 years now, time to change the tune.

  

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sept 15

made it to the top of the hill and now life has just begun. or has it?  i didn't have the birthday blues a week before my bday and that used to be the norm.  i celebrated with some close friends and the family. though i wanted someone to surprise me, i think i haven't lived the first part of my life well enough for me to deserve such.

so what's my birthday wish? to have a more gracious, forgiving and loving heart. for starters, i've patched things up with the girls (kate & ate vi)  and decided to go back to the group. will join them again next sunday.

hopefully and with God's help the next half of my life would be better lived. 

here's to good days ahead!!!