back... haven't been updating much lately because i'm so busy living life. hehe!
anyways, i'm now ??! and actually got a bit shock when my period became erratic these past 2 months. am i nearing menopause? it's a scary thought, actually. not just because i still wanna have kid/s of my own but it's a big wake-up call that i'm really not young anymore. with that thought in mind, i'm actually thinking of adopting a baby already. should i or should i not? it'll be a big responsibility, i know but when will i start? when i'm already in my 40s? it's in my prayer lists.... i wanna make sure that it is within the LORD's will for me to take in another life into my so-called existence.
the LORD has been doing things in my heart lately and if things keep at its course i will be totally free from years of bondage. and this i've learned, bondage doesn't mean you're addicted to something that is bad... it could actually take the form of holiness or something that "U THINK" will be good for u, but of course our FATHER knows best. that's why it took me years to get over it, because i thought that that's the best thing that could happen to me. but i have to let go of that thought. i have to tell myself that maybe there's something better than what i thought is best for me. our LORD can give me another story that is also pretty interesting to tell over and over again. that's what i want, LORD... a beautiful story, something that u Yourself had written.
it actually feels good to let go of it!
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