conditions

the other day i've found out that my adopted sister was using my laptop, not to mention my other stuff that i've told her time and time again not to use. and she even lied to me when i confronted her about it. i got so pissed that i asked her to leave. she did for a couple of days but decided to take her back with conditions and a final ultimatum.

which got me into thinking... what if GOD's like me? what if HE gives conditions each and every time i fail HIM, every time i sin? i wonder what have become of me if my GOD's like me. i've still so much to learn about forgiveness. i tend to keep tabs and i easily give up on people. i seldom give second chances.

it could be the exact reason why seldom of my relationships in the past lasted. speaking of romantic relationships, i was reading a novel the other day and the plot was about this guy who tends to pull back when he feels himself getting overly into someone already. he would disappear for days and would say things that would really hurt his partner's feelings but the girl stayed longer than i know i would. and god i don't wanna go through those heart wrenching scenes again. i'm too old for that but one thing i've learned, it's easier for me to let go now except for one person.... my german guy.