i'm still down in the dumps and it's been going on for more than a week already. i hope it's just pre and post menstrual syndrome. i don't like feeling this way; i'm being so sensitive and that's not totally me! and because of this i haven't spoken with my brother for weeks now for no apparent reason. am i going crazy? hehe


i hope i'm not burnt out. i've been calling in sick for 3 days now and i'm getting bored. but though i'm getting bored i still don't wanna go back to work. where do i find the motivation to go back to work again. i really don't wanna work anymore. but where will i get the money if i do stop working? i really hope harvest would be great come april/may, so sunshine and i could finally start our partnership.


speaking of which, is it really a good idea? lately, we've been texting constantly and he even gave me his second number. i'm really getting too excited about this but i'm still having second thoughts about everything. do i really wanna be that close to him? i know i'm courting disaster here but people change, don't they? 


awwww, all i could think of these past weeks is sunshine's oh-so-perfect-face.