it's not that i got tired of waiting already and no, i'm not giving up just yet but now i wanna put things on their proper perspective. i don't wanna waste anymore time wondering when the dream will come. i don't wanna muse about it any more than i've already done in the past years. it's becoming overstated. talking about it just makes it bigger than it really is. instead of talking about what we don't have or what we thought we're missing why not count the things or the privileges that we have being the way we are. say if you're waiting for years already why not count the things that you were able to accomplish just because you're in the state that you're in right now.
had you been married, would you be able to enjoy the friends that you now have? will u even meet them? will u be able to buy that gadget that oh u so want? or will u even know how to use one? won't we go crazy taking care of the kids and a husband without having some time for myself? will he even give u time to be out and go home whenever u want to? am i ready to forgo that freedom?
some may think that i'm just bitter or jaded that's why i'm saying all these... nah, i'm trying to come to terms with my being single. and honestly i don't think i'm soooo ready for the chaos that married life is.
don't get me wrong, i still want to get married someday but i won't muse much about that day anymore. FATHER knows best... HE knows when's the best time to give HIS daughter away.
for now, i should try and enjoy the freedom and the serenity that single life brings.
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