DEATH!

my sis-in-law's dad passed away just yesterday, it was quite a shock to all of us because it's so sudden. i really felt bad and saddened because her dad and mom were about to have their dreams come true. they bought a new house in the country side and were really excited about moving there come summer. the dad's quite excited that he has moved in there already as early as latter part of last year and then THIS!

but who are we to question this? death has its purpose and it's a reality check for us who's been left behind. till when are we gonna live? when will be our last day on earth? how are we gonna die? will it be sudden? have a lived good enough for others to miss me? have i done enough for my Lord? if not i then who's gonna be next to go to the grave? if the one who's going next is close to me, a relative or a friend... have i shown that person enough care? have i shown that person that he's/she's loved? these are just some of the questions that i've asked myself when i've learned of his death.

really, we could leave this life anytime... i could leave even now. am i ready for it though? are u?

spiritually speaking, yes i am ready. it's not because i'm good nor i've sinned less than the others. i'm still a sinner but one that's been saved by my Savior. i'm confident enough, due to HIS mercy and grace, that i'm gonna be with HIM when i die and quite frankly, i'm looking forward to that already. but not yet....

though my soul's already in HIS care i have yet to correct so many things with the way i live life. i ought to show more love to those around me. i have to lead others to CHRIST. i don't wanna be asking myself if someone close to me dies whether that person's soul is secure or not. i don't wanna have regrets just because it's already too late for me to show that person that she's/he's loved. tears, flowers, etc won't make that person feel loved anymore. so i better take action now.

last sunday a colleague went with me to church but even before that we've already discussed people's beliefs over a cup of coffee. and u know what's wrong with us people? we've forgotten how to think! we've become soooo lazy that we don't want to search for what's true anymore. we've forgotten how to ask significant questions already. we let people dictate to us what we should believe in. i told him that i don't want him to accept my beliefs just because i told him to or it looks good and sounds good. i want him to think. to search for the truth on his own. i hope he does that.

i remember reading somewhere that 'your belief or faith will only be real once u've started questioning it".

WEIGH!