next?

yesterday another one of my friends walked down the aisle. it was surreal! us girls all got misty-eyed because of joy. the couple's testimony and love story were indeed proof that this is God's doing. since they're both in the music ministry their wedding's like a musical. they were singing a duet while the bride walks down the aisle. romantic indeed! and i liked the couple's first dance also, it's not the traditional type. had fun!

but one of the things that struck me about the ceremony was when the pastor said that marriage is not just a contract, it's a covenant. what's the difference? contract could be voided, could be discontinued whereas a covenant's forever. u stay with each other no matter what. yeah, marriage is a point of no return. that's why marriage is not for everybody.

made me wonder if i should keep on with Schatz, should i? of all the guys that came into my life he's the one who has led me to a closer walk with GOD despite the arguments and all. marrying him would be like a celebration of our FATHER's goodness and how HE has answered a long time prayer, how HE has given a heart desire of many years.

i wonder how he's doing. his old bestfriend's back from england already and it's enough to make the old fear resurface. but why would i be scared? my friend's story is a good example that if you're meant to be together, God will do something about it. but of course GOD deals with each one of us differently.

so, who's gonna be next now?