i am literally hurting all over that i wanna quit already, i'm tired. but God has given me the spirit of a fighter that just wanna keep on and also i don't have that luxury, i just can't quit.
a lot of people who'd hear this would of course deem me as being negative again. they just don't know how big a spirit and amount of positivism it require to be like me. i am so tired already, is it bad to say that when it's the truth? when it's how i really feel? but in times like this i could feel God touching me, had i not been a Christian i would have given up a long time ago already. but He's there. He's my fortress, my hiding place, my anchor. Oh, how i praise You!
2 comments:
You complain because your complaints are legitimate. You struggle within yourself more than most. This is not something that you asked for ... it is just a fact. In your case, you have to work harder to overcome your soul and that by the spirit of the Living God.
Never once did God want anyone to have these kinds of trials and not be totally set free. I know you know that.
There are a couple stories that I hope will give you hope in your present circumstances. A very well known author and giant of faith struggled his entire life not understanding the love of the father towards him. It wasn't until late in life did he "get it". Another lady suffered greatly from fear and intimidation. She was in her 40's and still battling it. She went to a meeting and she was talking to a lady and the lady said, pardon me, but do you suffer from intimidation? The answer was "yes". The lady prayed for her and she said when she was it was like a spike was being pulled from her head and from that moment on she was free. It was a stronghold and whenever it would try to come back on her she said it was the easiest thing in the world to resist.
Relieve the guilt. You have a great heart. God loves you. You need peace and you know where to find it ... God's presence. Once you are there begin to exercise faith in the promises and deliverance will begin. You are meant to be a testimony and a help to others who are going through the same types of things. God WILL perfect that which concerns you. Let God do what you can't do (procure freedom) and you do what God won't do, be diligent to get in position for God to work.
Hope that made some sense.
You are a beautiful person and I want to see you free and so does God.
thanks a lot for this wonderful comment, whoever u are. :-)
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