closures

just got home from having dinner with 2 good friends, it was an emergency dinner coz of an event that happened last night. GOD has replaced the comma with a period . GOD's closing old chapters of our lives already, what happened to her also happened to me... C-L-O-S-U-R-E. it's sad but it's high time for us to say goodbye to those long gone.

my closure happened couple of weeks ago, i think. i've been praying for some clarity for the past month or so already and the answer came when i saw him accidentally. right there and then GOD gave me a clear answer, it's time to move on already. and it's actually freeing! i didn't even cry. what i had was just an illusion, he's not a beacon at all! i put him on a pedestal when in fact he didn't even treat me like a bro in Christ should. i fell in love with his profession, his mission and my idea of what a missionary should be like. i'm really glad that i'm over it now. i hope my friend would feel the same. the guy just used her as his emotional whore and i'm just glad that he's now gone.

so, what's in store for us? not sure but one thing i know, GOD is moving. HE's got something exciting planned. can't wait for that plan to come into fruition. but for now i'm willing to wait for THE ONE, i just hope he's just around the bend. i don't know who's it gonna be yet, he may not even be my idea of what i want but i'm open to possibilities. i just wanna feel treasured, cherished and loved.

and what would make me feel loved?
> service
> gifts
> words of affirmation/appreciation

i have a wonderful GOD!