idols

what is it that i really want from life? what's my utmost desire? what do i really want to ask GOD for?

according to the book that i'm currently reading, the answers to these questions are the devil's targets of temptations. the author stated that these are the biggies satan uses to get us off track; fortune, fame, power and pleasure. as a woman (speaking for myself) my desire really is not to amass great fortune nor to have power and fame, i just want to be loved the way i am... no ifs, no buts. i think it could be categorize as pleasure and this is where the devil often tricks me. for years now this is the lesson that i always fail to learn. they just have different names, different circumstances but still the same lesson, my want of pleasure. but don't get me wrong, it's not the type that's completely sexual. it's that inner desire to share everything with another person. problem is, it seems like i always pick the wrong ones.

but slowly i'm finally learning how to leave it all in God's hands. just recently my heart got broken again but it's not a major heartache only because all throughout my prayer was for GOD to hold my heart in HIS hands...to not let it go until it's already time. and HE kept to HIS word...

1 John 5:4-5 (New Living Translation)

4 For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith. 5 And who can win this battle against the world? Only those who believe that Jesus is the Son of God.

...and kept my heart really safe.

it's really sad how we as Christians often act as losers when we were promised in HIS word that we are victorious in HIM. may our desires/idols don't take precedence over our LORD. HE can give us more than these idols could give us.... more than the pleasure that a lover could give.

may we stay away from anything that might take GOD's place in our hearts.